Sunday, January 19th, 2025
I feel like the first step in any direction has to be a little awkward - even in the best circumstances, with all the preparation and guidance in the world, something has just got to give. For me it’s usually the anxiety, I love learning, I love creating, I love being, but sometimes it feels like I’ll always exist on spme sort of shaky ground. Stability Has Not Quite Made Itself Comfortable With Me Yet.
All to say I don’t really know what I want this to be. I think I just need another outlet, one which I can just kinda document my excitement at life and my friends and the joys in this world, something new to put my mental eggs into. Plus I have been terribly out of practice trying to write anything cohesive these past few years so maybe this will help me piece it all back together. God knows I could always use my shoes tied the stitch up. I’ve been making a lot of really cool music lately! Between nexttojackiekennedy and Kitty Hell albums and writing so many cool new songs with new friends, the chances of getting stuck creatively feel slim (YAYYY). I love being surrounded by other incredibly creative friends who are always itching for new ideas and most of all having fun :3.
Speaking of which, have y’all ever put a whole album onto a DAW? This stuff is soooo cool, I feel like all my past projects have been super strung together but ever since I got my laptop fixed I’m discovering all these cool tricks and I can literally just LOOK at this album mapped out and it’s so weird. I should really be mixing it instead of yapping about it but… whatever.. After this first set of albums I wanna start hanging and making music with more people 1-on-1. With this laptop back at least I don’t have to worry about staring at loading screens for 5+ minutes anymore lol.. But it’s also got my wondering what my next larger scale project will be 0.0
I’ve also got to acknowledge just the hell of a time I’ve had the past few days playing with so many favorite bands. It’s hard to pull me out of the front row for a Narcissist set, I love those boys to death :D and also if you haven’t seen Jake’s Holiday or Aznable yet you are missing some really wacky (incredible) stuff. My body is sore but my heart aches for another show - but Alana and Topo are keeping me in this dark room with kibble until the album is done. I hope it’ll be worth it :D
I think I’m gonna try to make this a weekly Sunday kind of thing, and probably do more stuff on this site. I might get less shy and less scatterbrained and start talking about cooler things and writing poems and pieces but an awkward start is a start nonetheless.
See you soon :3